my grandpa became very ill for a while after he fell down. we took my grandmother (who is 83 years old) in and took care of her while he was in the hospital. we had hope that he would get out soon. but he got an amune system infection and just kept getting worse. he passed away on a tuesday, march 5 2012 at the age of 82. (love you poppy r.i.p.) i had a really hard time dealing with it at first since it was my first time dealing with something like this. then on top of that my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me..like RIGHT after that happened. my first love....sooo yeah. i was very depressed for a very long time and was having panic attacks several times a day. but i finally feel a little bit better. i had to use all my money to help my parents pay for all the stuff that goes into taking care of my grandmother who is now living with us. she has the mindset of a baby. shes pretty funny...like when she tries to feed people who are in the newpaper cereal. but then again sometimes she doesnt even recognize us. (which hurts esprcially when she tells us not to touch her or be near her..its all part of her disease.) so its really stressful and busy at the same time. i was just scared that the people i never drew their things for would think i'm a big scam. (which i guess i am to those listed below) but here i am telling the truth and coming clean wanting to make up for it.. and i hope that you will all forgive me. i will pay you all back. i know i had to pay:
thats all the people i can remember.. and i'm pretty sure those are all the people i had left? o_o; please i hope you all understand. i'm so sorry for this horrible inconvenience. when i start posting things on here again, i will draw you all something for free. i just needed to tell everyone that. i was tired of hiding. kinda. i'm sorryyyyyyy...agh. i'm sad now.







I guess I can say that we all love you and we're glad you're back
And you are most definitely not a bad person.
I had to deal with my grandma living with us, since she's sick too, but not mentally (though she is damn outright stubborn) and she wasn't cooperating at all. It was stressful, and we still have to deal with all the family problems, but, we're getting through as well as I hope you will too.
I'm sure your commissioners will understand. I mean I'd gladly wait a thousand years for art like yours!
Hope you feel better and panic attacks are no fun boo.. (had one on monday!) and hope your life gets brighter and brighter each day!!
I know how it feels to have an important death like that, my mother died in the last week.
I'm glad to see you're back and feeling better. But no one should blame you or thing you're a bad person, you had things come up in life it's not your fault at all.
I hope you feel better soon <3
Again, we've barely conversed before but if you need someone, I'm all ears. Feel better, and things will get better!