I'm sorry

couldnt finish the last few commissions from my last batch. so i am working on giving them back their money. its been forever since i've been on here. let me tell you guys what happened.

my grandpa became very ill for a while after he fell down. we took my grandmother (who is 83 years old) in and took care of her while he was in the hospital. we had hope that he would get out soon. but he got an amune system infection and just kept getting worse.  he passed away on a tuesday, march 5 2012 at the age of 82. (love you poppy r.i.p.)  i had a really hard time dealing with it at first since it was my first time dealing with something like this.  then on top of that my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me..like RIGHT after that happened. my first love....sooo yeah.   i was very depressed for a very long time and was having panic attacks several times a day.  but i finally feel a little bit better.  i  had to use all my money to help my parents pay for all the stuff that goes into taking care of my grandmother who is now living with us. she has the mindset of a baby. shes pretty funny...like when she tries to feed people who are in the newpaper cereal. but then again sometimes she doesnt even recognize us. (which hurts esprcially when she tells us not to touch her or be near her..its all part of her disease.)  so its really stressful and busy at the same time.  i was just scared that the people i never drew their things for would think i'm a big scam. (which i guess i am to those listed below)  but here i am telling the truth and coming clean wanting to make up for it.. and i hope that you will all forgive me. i will pay you all back. i know i had to pay:





thats all the people i can remember.. and i'm pretty sure those are all the people i had left?  o_o;   please i hope you all understand. i'm so sorry for this horrible inconvenience. when i start posting things on here again, i will draw you all something for free. i just needed to tell everyone that. i was tired of hiding. kinda. i'm sorryyyyyyy...agh. i'm sad now.


i dont want you all to think i'm a bad person..thats all.