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April 26, 2012


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couldnt finish the last few commissions from my last batch. so i am working on giving them back their money. its been forever since i've been on here. let me tell you guys what happened.

my grandpa became very ill for a while after he fell down. we took my grandmother (who is 83 years old) in and took care of her while he was in the hospital. we had hope that he would get out soon. but he got an amune system infection and just kept getting worse.  he passed away on a tuesday, march 5 2012 at the age of 82. (love you poppy r.i.p.)  i had a really hard time dealing with it at first since it was my first time dealing with something like this.  then on top of that my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with RIGHT after that happened. my first love....sooo yeah.   i was very depressed for a very long time and was having panic attacks several times a day.  but i finally feel a little bit better.  i  had to use all my money to help my parents pay for all the stuff that goes into taking care of my grandmother who is now living with us. she has the mindset of a baby. shes pretty when she tries to feed people who are in the newpaper cereal. but then again sometimes she doesnt even recognize us. (which hurts esprcially when she tells us not to touch her or be near her..its all part of her disease.)  so its really stressful and busy at the same time.  i was just scared that the people i never drew their things for would think i'm a big scam. (which i guess i am to those listed below)  but here i am telling the truth and coming clean wanting to make up for it.. and i hope that you will all forgive me. i will pay you all back. i know i had to pay:


thats all the people i can remember.. and i'm pretty sure those are all the people i had left?  o_o;   please i hope you all understand. i'm so sorry for this horrible inconvenience. when i start posting things on here again, i will draw you all something for free. i just needed to tell everyone that. i was tired of hiding. kinda. i'm sorryyyyyyy...agh. i'm sad now.

:( i dont want you all to think i'm a bad person..thats all.
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Paipuru Featured By Owner May 10, 2012  Student General Artist
I'm very late... but I'm so sorry that happened... I really don't have any idea what you're going through, but I'll do my best to help you :blush:
Kowiubi Featured By Owner May 4, 2012
now I feel stupid for being so impatient... do your best tesa.
I guess I can say that we all love you and we're glad you're back
mkj120 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2012  Student Artist
I'm so sorry, I understand the stress life can bring. You don't need to apologize...

And you are most definitely not a bad person.
Kazbob Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2012
Aww :hug: I hope you feeling ok
Yetac Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
We're all here for you when you need an internet hug. Take care sweet, and keep moving forward. :heart:
AnimeLuvver Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2012  Student General Artist
It's okay. Life get's in the way, but, everything that happens is to make us stronger, even if we ask ourselves,"Why?"

I had to deal with my grandma living with us, since she's sick too, but not mentally (though she is damn outright stubborn) and she wasn't cooperating at all. It was stressful, and we still have to deal with all the family problems, but, we're getting through as well as I hope you will too.

I'm sure your commissioners will understand. I mean I'd gladly wait a thousand years for art like yours! :D
Hope you feel better and panic attacks are no fun boo.. (had one on monday!) and hope your life gets brighter and brighter each day!!
Nintala Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
I hope things will get better soon, I know they will :)
I know how it feels to have an important death like that, my mother died in the last week.
I'm glad to see you're back and feeling better. But no one should blame you or thing you're a bad person, you had things come up in life it's not your fault at all.
MegaSquishy Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2012
You're not a bad person. We understand you're going through a lot :c
I hope you feel better soon <3
rioIu Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Why would we think of you as a bad person? We've barely conversed before but I can tell you are a kind, or at least nice person. No one can blame you for your boyfriend breaking up with you when you need support, nor the death of a dear family member. Anyone who doesn't understand should think about shoving their feet in your shoes and being asked, "How would you be able to get any free time when all of this stressful stuff is happening?" I'm sure those consumers and the other ones will understand your situation and won't be mad at you. :) Like I said, given they're understanding people, they'd know nothing about it is your fault.
Again, we've barely conversed before but if you need someone, I'm all ears. Feel better, and things will get better! :heart:
KattPrime Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2012
Im so sorry I hope everything wrks out 4 da best
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